Typically, it was between 12:00 A.M. and 1:30 A.M. before my husband and I could clock out and go home. Reason being, customers habitually “camped out” thirty to forty-five minutes after closing. Then and only then could we even begin our closing duties: counting money, washing and sanitizing everything, inspecting and refilling condiments and sugar caddies, and getting a manager to accept credit card receipts, gifts cards, and cash collected throughout the night.
This night in particular wasn’t any quicker than others. The manager was avoiding us, not wanting to discuss the situation any further, and my husband and I were both dragging our feet.
The fear of the unknown was daunting to us.
What would happen with our finances? Our credit?
Our serving jobs brought in a substantial amount of money, between $520 and $740 a week! This was more than enough to cover all of our expenses.
Though we could, potentially, make this at most restaurants, finding one that would work with our schedules would be a dilemma. Our rigorous course loads and class schedules kept us rather busy Monday – Thursday.
We did not know if we were going to have money to pay our rent, our car payment, our phone bill and utilities, and our college tuition and fees.
Would we even have groceries?
We didn’t know what was going to happen, how our finances would get covered, or where our groceries would come from. However, we did know that God, our Father, always provides.
Even so, I remember getting home, walking quietly through our town home, and climbing up the stairs to our bedroom with anticipation and anxiety. . .
Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble (Matthew 6:25-34).